friendship....or new love??

i know you wouldn't read this but i wanna still write about it..
my dear.. we know since we r in semester 1..not very close at the first but after things by thing happens..we became very close..even i think you r kind of sis to me..
in semester 3.. i still remember your deeply tears..you never cry except because of your family..after more than a year..that is the first time u cry a lot..a lot..u don't want to eat..neither sleep..u know what, even at that time i totally never understood..but my heart hurt to see u like that.. i gave u letters in mosque..i told u..ALLAH love u so much..that's y He gave u a test..u told me your mother ask u to keep the letter until now..then u said.."salma..kau kawan aku dunia akhirat"
sincerely dear..only u my friend that i always mentioned in my doa n make me cry a lot during my prayed.
but now??
i never expected u became like this..do u believe in man that u just met him not more than a month compare to a friends that being with u for 2 years??
do u know a man that u love the most confess his love to me??
do u know that i beg to that man for not leaving u before this final because i want u focus in final..
do u know i hurt a lot..loving u n hate u at the same time??
i'm not asking u to appreciate me..i only ask u..please return my best friend..i missed her a lot..
i never stop praying for u..i only want u to know..i never want to ruined your life or love..u know that i'm gonna get engaged right? so why should i want to steal your bf??
i want u to know..i still by your side even after so much pain u gave to me..because when i started love u honestly..i will never hate u..
assalamualaikum..